Midnight Texting

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 I send messages to my friends at 1am.

It’s silly.

It’s silly because I know no one is awake at 1am.

Who replies to messages at 1am?

I know they are sleeping

They are sleeping because it is 1am.

But I still send those messages,

I send the messages because I get lonely.

But as the night drags on I get lonelier.

I get lonelier because there are no replies,

There are no replies because no one is awake,

No one is awake because it is 1am.

Then I get sad,

Sad because there are still no replies

I know I shouldn’t be sad

I know this because it is 1am and none s awake to read those messages.

 

But my depression doesn’t know that its 1am

So, he comes to me,

Whispers in my ear.

He tells me that my friends have abandoned me.

Anxiety lists all the reasons why they have abandoned me.

I don’t think any of those reasons are true,

( I hope they aren’t )

I forgive Anxiety and de[pression,

They don’t know that its 1 am

They don’t know that no one replies at 1am…

 

I look at my phone.

It is now 11am

There are still no replies.

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