On February 14th: 2

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 I'm sorry that you got played,

But what did you really expect after  he said 

"Baby I will never do it again"

For the 66th million time.

I'm sorry that it took you this long to realize that he was now desensitized to the effect of your tears.

I'm sorry that he was a tool.

I'm sorry that he got to use you 

Manipulate you,

Playing you for a fool,

While some how putting all the blame on you.

I'm sorry that you were blinded by your love for him.

I get it,

Love makes us blind to the failings of others,

And I am sorry you fell victim.

I'm sorry that you parents couldn't be here with you,

Because God only know how they would react 

If they found out where you were at.

I'm sorry that your last resort was this dark alley way, 

And I'm sorry that your best friend decided not to stay.

Maybe of she had I wouldn't be struggling to write your eulogy.

Maybe I could have told you it would all be okay.

Maybe I could have helped you escape.

 I'm sorry that you felt so lonely that you had to tether yourself to a relationship so toxic it ultimately lead you to your death.

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