Love Yourself

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To whomever the fuck that said,

“You cannot love me unless you love yourself.”

Do you know me?

Have we me met?

Because you clearly have never met me.

Hi.

My name is Racsen.

And I am an ocean of emotion,

The is constantly in motion.

My love is infinite,

It always on the go,

Looking for somewhere to attach itself,

A place to call home.

I wear my heart out on my sleeve,

Because it feels uncomfortable in my own body.

Love doesn’t want me to be its home.

So, it’s always on the prowl,

And when it met you it howled,

And I couldn’t have agreed more,

Because wow!

Words have never failed me but when I saw you,

I was dumbstruck,

StarStruck,

Lovestruck.

I swear my body shut down.

My heart somersaulted onto you your soul.

My heart doesn’t know how to let go

I don’t blame it though.

It’s not like I ever gave it much attention.

I don’t give myself attention.

I don’t smile as much as I should,

I never give myself the room to cry when I need to,

I don’t laugh when the room echoes with laughter,

I don’t love myself!

So, it would only make sense that the love that I deny myself would seek another host.

That’s why I am capable of loving everyone around me without ever giving myself a second thought.

That is why I am capable of loving you.

To the person that said,

“You cannot love me before you learn to love yourself.”

You clearly don’t know what a broken soul with the pathological need to care looks like.

So,  let me introduce you.

Hi.

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