Dear Everyone

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 I am aware this is a change of pace,

And this might seem a tad bit out of place,

But,

The time is still befitting.

I have come to realise,

That as I slowly spiral towards my demise,

That it was never my mission on this planet to be happy.

God had a much bigger plan,

And if you think about it its really quite sad.

See you could liken me to a candle,

I consume myself to shine the light,

Show others the path,

Like an eraser I sacrifice my to cover your mistakes,

So, you have a chance to be better.

I am not proclaiming self-righteousness,

But the way I see things that’s pretty much how my life has been working.

I’m like a diving board,

I bear the weight of your trauma,

Bending and recoiling each time you gain confidence,

As you heal little by little,

Giving you more and more push,

Until you are finally ready to take that dive,

But when you leave,

I rattle and I shake but I have to be strong.

Realign myself so that the next person can jump.

You see time never gives me the opportunity to heal.

In short, I exist only to serve the happiness of others.

As time progresses, I have realised 

As I slowly move towards my demise,

That everyone in my life is attaining some level of happiness.

So, I find myself in a dilemma,

Where to this life I can no longer be tethered.

Were everyone is now happy,

And I still feel kinda crappy.

I don’t think it still belong,

Maybe its time to sing that farewell song.

Time to shed my final tear,

Say goodbye to earth with no more fear.

 


Comments

  1. RoyceDecember 21, 2020 at 3:41 PM

    What’s sad is 😩no matter how much you wanna say goodbye
    Imagining the hurt in everyone’s eyes
    Pulls you back to the same place
    Were you stay on earth ,just for them

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    1. Racsen21December 21, 2020 at 10:56 PM

      Existing for people who couldn't care less about whether you live or die 😣

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  2. RoyaltyDecember 21, 2020 at 8:44 PM

    Sad reality man

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