Maybe?

 

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

I told you that I like you,

You said that you like me too.

I giggled,

I don’t normally giggle.

My Awkward smile is stuck,

Plastered on my face,

Dreaming about the day,

I get to feel your embrace.

I know,  

I sound like a blithering idiot,

But I can’t help it.

You see for so long the idea of happiness

Was so far removed,

Until the day I started talking to you.

See there I go again,

Letting passion consume me,

I’m falling,

And I’m falling recklessly.

I am genuinely happy,

But I’m scared.

Scared we will lose that spark,

That vibe you and I have.

I’m afraid of being lost

In a perpetual cycle of awkward “hello’s”.

But these fears are trivial,

We can work past them,

Right?

No, the thing I am truly scared of,

Is that one day you will wake up.

You’ll wake up and you will see my scars.

The Vitiation of my heart,

The desecration of my soul,

My shattered mind.

I’m scared that one of these days you will see through my façade,

And when that day inevitably comes,

I’m afraid you won’t like me anymore.

I’m afraid you will look at a text from me and you will lose your smile,

Scared that you will lose that sparkle in your eye every time you see my face,

Scared that you won’t love me,

The way I think I’m falling in love with you

Yes, I’m scared

Tell me,

Are my fears irrational?

Maybe they are,

Because they have no rational basis.

Maybe I am just setting myself up for heartache,

Falling this fast,

Building it all on a dream.

Or maybe I’m just overthinking everything,

Maybe my heart needs break peddles,

Maybe I should take things slower,

Just live in the moment,

Stop worrying so much.

Maybe I like you is enough,

Maybe…….just maybe.