From an Awkward Teen

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I’m kinda new to this,

Its all just one big hit and miss,

I’m not one to kiss and tell,

Mostly because there was never a kiss I just fell,

Head over heels for you.

I thought the thrill of the chase would be kinda fun,

But you’ve got me thinking I should become something more like a nun,

See I use the word nun only because it fits the rhyme,

Stringing words into poetry has become my idea of a good time,

Not trying to chase you.

My feeling I wish I could confess,

Truth be told my heart has become one big mess,

The idea of trying to steal your heart,

Has become an incomprehensible art,

One which I have failed to master.

Chasing your heart, I thought I’d try,

But now all I do is cry,

At the thought of trying to text you,

To flirt with you,

In this game for two,

I have no idea how to deal with you.

I really like you,

I wish I could tell you, why can’t I just tell you?

Why does shooting my shot have to be so complicated,

Like it’s a game designed for the sophisticated,

Why can’t I just like you like that?

Why can’t we just be together like that?

Why do I have to dig deep into my vocabulary?

Pull out my dictionary to craft sentences so emotionally complex that they are designed to ensure you remember me,

Why do I put so much effort into liking you when I know you might not feel the same?

Can’t you see that I’m shy but I’m trying,

Spare me another night of almost crying,

I know its sudden,

And maybe we weren’t built for forever,

And I’m not asking for it,

I want you to see beyond the veil and the mask

The thin façade I want you to break through,

I want you to give me a chance,

To see beyond the shyness,

To see the content of my character and not my shot shooting game,

And maybe we weren’t built for forever,

That’s okay,

But if you let me maybe together, we can feel forever just for a minute,

Maybe you could help me unlock the feelings I keep hidden inside,

And maybe I could show there is more beyond my reserved exterior,

Maybe, you could be the one,

I don’t know,

Maybe I just sound insane

Or I took a severe hit to the brain,

But what I am certain of is I want to see what a future with you looks like,

So hi,

I think I have a crush on you

 

 

Wow, of all the cringy things I have ever written I feel like this is the most cringe worthy has anyone ever felt like this about a crush.   


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